Revisit
It's been a long time hasn't it?
I would have said it's been too long, but I think it was a good little hiatus. It is possible to honestly say I have left a lot of that behind. New slate and all that. It's been 5 months since my last post, and everything is so different.
Firstly, I'm on the other side of the world, doing something I completely did not expect to be doing. Secondly, a number of people who were influentual in my life then are no longer the people in my life now.
Everything I had planned for the second half of the year has been tossed out. Similarly, everything I had in mind for this site no longer seems relevant.
Three and a half months ago, if you told me what I'd be doing now, I would have laughed. Quite possibly have even scoffed at the thought. Right now, the next 6 to 8 months are uncertain for me and where I go from here all hinges on the next few weeks. & if anything, I have seen how significantly plans for the next year can change in the matter of days. I don't just mean myself either, a lot of people's lives on this project have been uprooted and redirected.
I honestly found the first month in Munich a bit hard to adjust and settle in properly to life over here. But after being home for the week and coming back, Munich is now like a second home for me. I know I was in Beijing for 3 weeks, but it was short. I knew I would be getting out of there and never had to settle in properly. It's a bit daunting to say, hey you're going to be here for half a year so it's time to make friends with work colleagues as you'll be spending over 100 hours a week with them, just get some food at your favourite restaurants, hang out, grab a coffee, go out with 'friends' etc.
I never knew things as simple as what time places close, travel distances and living out a suitcase in a hotel would have such an impact on my lifestyle. This has to be the hardest part.
& now my lifestyle has changed, my Sydney lifestyle seems so very foreign and different. I look back at my friends in Sydney and wonder how different our lives are. & hope that it will be easier to switch back, if I ever can.
I would have said it's been too long, but I think it was a good little hiatus. It is possible to honestly say I have left a lot of that behind. New slate and all that. It's been 5 months since my last post, and everything is so different.
Firstly, I'm on the other side of the world, doing something I completely did not expect to be doing. Secondly, a number of people who were influentual in my life then are no longer the people in my life now.
Everything I had planned for the second half of the year has been tossed out. Similarly, everything I had in mind for this site no longer seems relevant.
Three and a half months ago, if you told me what I'd be doing now, I would have laughed. Quite possibly have even scoffed at the thought. Right now, the next 6 to 8 months are uncertain for me and where I go from here all hinges on the next few weeks. & if anything, I have seen how significantly plans for the next year can change in the matter of days. I don't just mean myself either, a lot of people's lives on this project have been uprooted and redirected.
I honestly found the first month in Munich a bit hard to adjust and settle in properly to life over here. But after being home for the week and coming back, Munich is now like a second home for me. I know I was in Beijing for 3 weeks, but it was short. I knew I would be getting out of there and never had to settle in properly. It's a bit daunting to say, hey you're going to be here for half a year so it's time to make friends with work colleagues as you'll be spending over 100 hours a week with them, just get some food at your favourite restaurants, hang out, grab a coffee, go out with 'friends' etc.
I never knew things as simple as what time places close, travel distances and living out a suitcase in a hotel would have such an impact on my lifestyle. This has to be the hardest part.
& now my lifestyle has changed, my Sydney lifestyle seems so very foreign and different. I look back at my friends in Sydney and wonder how different our lives are. & hope that it will be easier to switch back, if I ever can.
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4:45 AM
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